THINGS THAT DON'T HELP THE ALREADY CONFUSED

Admittedly, I'm already confused about the difference between reality and fantasy. I have a Twilight Zone approach to life. As a child I had the usual belief that my real parents who were amazingly rich, would come any day to get me and take to my real life. I had several theories as to why I was left on a farm in the middle of nowhere in the first place. I mean, if parents do it with their children's pets why not their children as well. Except I hoped they would eventually come back to get them, contrary to how they never came back for the pets - regardless of how the children pleaded.

Now, even at 67, I'm still waiting for my real parents to come back. But even more, to find out that by several unusual circumstances that their huge estate is going to be passed on to me like it happens on TV and in the movies. So, needless to say, I go around in a fog much of the time. Admittedly, life doesn't make a lot of sense. There's the evil, the ugly and the incomprehensible. But then, there are those moments that are truly sublime. I'm beginning to believe that at least some paradoxes might be possible but some things seem to go out of their way to further confuse an already  blurred perception.

Yes, it is an even more confusing world when things don't fit or go together - Are something other than what they try to be - Come with false or unnecessary labeling - Or are stating completely opposite directions, concepts, positions, beliefs at the same time. I have to look at some things in the news and say that can't be right or how is that even possible or why is that even important? After so much, I'm beginning to wonder who it is that is actually confused.